Blame It On Me

在我心情如此低潮的时候，听回这首歌，感觉实在不同。我明白烦恼是无处不在的，可是为什么我的烦恼特别多？我应该是开朗的，我应该是会变通的，我更应该是无忧无虑的！今天我会搞得这样，就是因为我没有责任心，没有尽力做好一个学生的本分！我应该要更负责任...

此刻，我也想起了我的伴侣。在我这样颓废的当儿，她依然不离不弃，陪伴我听我发牢骚。我想在这边，向她说声对不起。我开始对她越来越不好了，一点点就发脾气，一点点就对她起疑心。唉~ 我真的不是一个好男友...

So, you can put the blame on me...

Blame It On Me - Akon
As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is effecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for the things that I've done
And things that haven't occurred yet
And things that they don’t want to take responsibility for

I'm sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know

That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I'd disrespect

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my sons
I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there

Because I'm in the streets like everyday
I'm sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

I understand that there's a problem
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'd be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry for the things daddy put you through
Like all the times you didn't know what to do
I'm sorry that you had to go and sell those bags
Just trying to stay busy till you heard from day

And You would rather be home with all your kids
It's one big family with love and bliss
And even though pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn't agree

He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief

I'm sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would've listened and not been so bad
I'm sorry that your life turned out this way
I'm sorry that the feds came and took me away

I understand that there's a problem
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'd be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry that it took so long to see
That they were dead wrong, trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani

I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt
The further embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should of never let her out that young

I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say

Why doesn't anybody wanna take blame?
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I'm just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans, I'll take that blame

Even though the blames on you
Even though the blames on you
Even though the blames on you
I'll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
And You can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

You can put that blame on me

不是我不体谅

刚刚我妈告诉我，我老爸不想我住那间Metro View Condominium，因为很贵…我的心情又变了~ 怎么这些烦恼总爱找上门？？我姑姑也找到一间公寓，月租700，不过不是我理想中的那样！便宜是便宜了一点，不过为什么去打乱我原先的计划呢？是否没有11个A1就得diam diam？？

我要求的不是五星级六星级的住所，只要干净、安全、住得舒服就行了…如果要我去住像香港连续剧，吸毒的人住的那些公寓，我甘愿不住了！我也不喜欢密密麻麻，几十个人塞在一间房间，你们不觉得很不舒服吗？？想转个身都有问题的…虽然我要的那间是贵了点，不过有洗衣机、冰箱、heater和游泳池等等，一个月1200不算过分吧？还是5个人平分咧，一个月才250…如果我搬去那间700的，我朋友绝对不可能会跟我住的，那700我就一个人还定了…

我爸爸的观念可能是说，可以住就行了，可惜我与他是相反的…可以住之余，还要看看是不是人住的，狗窝也可以住啊，为什么没有人去住？因为不是给人住的咯…如果说要我住几天，勉勉强强可以啦，硬着头皮住就是了，不过我去那里读5年的书咧，要我住在那里5年？别傻了…爸，你杀了我吧…

爸爸，不是我不体谅你赚钱辛苦，我明白自己不是有钱人…不过，我也只是想住得舒服些，而且不是我一人住，我还要顾我朋友的看法，不是我一个人可以决定的…烦恼接二连三地来，我的志气被削得看不见了…还要谈我的理想？算了吧…没有11个A1，真的只能diam diam…我不能让我父母觉得光荣，却让他们蒙羞，我这个做孩子的真够失败…他们肯定觉得很后悔，生了我这个东西出来…对不起，我不能成为第二个“章玉田”，我只能成为下一个“苏天才”…别供我上大学了，浪费你们的血汗钱…

还是那句英文话，不过我想帮我父母说出来，我觉得他们想骂很久了，不过就是骂不出…没关系，今天你们的大儿子我，来完成你们的心愿…

Son, Please FUCK OFF from our family!! Our family no need you!! You are a shame!! Get off!!

SPM的成绩让我想大喊“FUCK OFF!”

成绩在3月12号就公布了，不瞒大家，我的成绩不怎么理想…虽然说没有不及格，不过可以用一落千丈来形容…我之所以会有这个成绩，并不是题目太难还是改考卷的老师怪懒，而是我花了两年时间玩出来的结果…高一开始，我已无心向学，每天不是逃学就是四处溜达，就算在班，我最熟悉的动作就是把双手交叉放在桌上，然后头就躺在手臂睡觉…时间很快，我这样又玩又睡就过了两年…

我这两年来，最有印象的教学应该只是语文科吧？那些Bio，Physic，Chemistry，Add-Math还有Sejarah是我从来不放在心上的科目，所以我对这几科的认识很陌生…成绩出来了，最差的就是这几科，就连我最有信心的华语，也拿不到A…我对自己真的很失望，就连我父母也对我的成绩摇头…唉，有这种成绩你以为是我要的咩…？我又不是“章玉田”…

就算成绩不好，现在也不能作什么改变了，只能鞭策自己上了学院要开始认真！可惜，所有事情总是与我作对…为什么所有事情不像我们原先计划好的那样顺利？总在最后关头才出现问题…我很厌倦，这些烦恼缠绕着我好几天了！

我的思绪很乱，我甚至开始放弃…如果我的计划依然这么不顺利，我决定不继续读书了…读书，竟然形成我目前最大的烦恼！What The Fuck?!


FUCK OFF!!

鬼？笑脸？还是长江7号？

按以上那张相片，在我的脸附近你会看到一个笑脸。把这张相片save起来，再放大它来看，到底它是什么？光？7仔？我百思不解~ 这张相片是我们在PLKN里拍到的，振邦发现了才告诉我。由于我不知道那是什么，所以我把它归类在灵异相片那边，哈哈！

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她与我：


真理老师：


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Joshua 与我：


慈音寺：


手语练习：


一班男生：


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看国光多么帅：


Datang dgn Paksaan, Pulang dgn kenangan：


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我的荣幸！：


多么帅气！：


Kem Wawasan：


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一群豆记：


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这本书陪了我一个星期：


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帽子党：


Ayu - 策栋 - 我：

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Dari kiri Cepatttt jalan!!!

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Nasib kamu kurang baik…

Wira, turun 20 kali…

PT sepuluh sebanyak 20 kali, exercise bermula!

Perhatian!! (Khidmat Negara~~)

PK5! The best!!!

Charlie gemilang oh~ Charlie gemilang!! Wuhaa!!

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Intergrasi Kelas 8 bestnye…

Datang dgn paksaan, pulang dgn kenangan…

Jauh~

Kembali pulang~

Haruskah ku mati karenamu~

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